The day

I don't even know what I will write on this.

I don't have anything planned or prepared for this.

I just know that I wanted to write down some of my feelings at this moment.

I have so many feelings right now that I don't even know how to express them

First of all, la Vinotinto lost tonight. Not fairly but they lost.

Also, today was a HUGE deal for me and my past, present, and future

Today I decided to come clean to my friends

I told them the truth and I let it all out, no lies or anything tonight.

Their response? all positive. which it scares me a little

No body wants to lose a friend after being honest about such an important aspect of your life.

But I still feel a little vulnerable and hesitant about the future and what's to come.

Sometimes I wish my life would have gone a little different before. I which I could been a little stronger in the past and fought for my beliefs and that way now I wouldn't have to deal with this anymore. But I guess not everything goes the way you planned. Life is perky that way.

I know what my past meant, and I know where I stand in the present. But I have no fucking idea where I lay in the future. No one knows, but at least they have goals and dreams. whereas right now I just don't know.

I am waiting for the moment to feel my life complete again. I am waiting for that someone to take me away. I am waiting for my future to come and rescue me. Until then, I lay here in bed thinking about my self.