fuck you

Today everyone moves on. TODAY.

Is Saturday at 5pm I just woke up about 15 min ago. I'm serious.

My dog is looking at me like 'are u going to take me out?'

All I did was open the back door for her.

All I did was give her everything.

I'm sitting in the kitchen. Unusual.

I went online and my curiosity kicked in

Is hard when everyone moves on and you're stuck

Is hard when you are the only kid left in a evacuated town

I have all this feeling for you that will never go away.

I have practiced all this feeling on you, love, hate even indifference.

None of them ever worked. No good. Not ever.

None of them were good enough. I wasn't it. I will never be.

I don't regret leaving this far away on the road.

I don't regret not leaving when you started treated me like shit

I don't regret forgetting all your flaws so that you would keep being perfect to me.

I don't regret wanting to give you everything.

Maybe I should regret it. Maybe I should forget it.

But TODAY I don't.

Today, there is happiness and celebration all around. Just not in this house.

Today, you are sealing the contract, while I'm here still trying to find mine in the wrong portrait.

I don't like today. I dislike today. I disapprove of today. I'm stuck today.

I'm stuck in my mind with these feelings that are no good for me.

FUCK YOU.